MEMOIR OF A ROMANCE BY THE BEACH

Flames from the campfire flickered and the shadows danced,
My love and I were romantically entranced,
Waves from the energetic sea lapping on the sand,
Serenaded us like an orchestra band,
Gentle breeze caressed our young faces,
Brought us closer to more embraces,
This idyllic, romantic setting,
Quickened our hearts’ beating,
Sweet whisperings greeting each glance,
As we were totally lost in romance.

Those were the days of my childhood romance that brought back many fond memories. Life was so care free then. There were no worries, stresses or pressures of whatsoever to enable both of us lovingly embraced each other at all the time. Time changed, needs changed, circumstances changed that resulted us to go our separate ways to seek our own life’s goal. But love never dies, as fate has its own plans in hand. The love was too strong to be unbounded by our distance, barriers and commitments in life.

A butterfly may fly off through the softly blown wind but it will still come back to the ground where it has found filled with rich lovely flowers. Love is like the butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. If you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. I am glad I still have my love with me through all ups and down in our lives.

SWEET MEMORIES OF MY LIFE

Life can so wonderful when you have sweet memories of everything from your childhood days until you are an adult now. I can still remember that cheeky smile I had when I was small, sitting on the stairways with bald head and few teeth missing in front. That was cute. As I was growing up, memories of those outings with my former primary and secondary classmates were also unforgettable. We had picnics, BBQs and telematches by the beach with girls from other schools. It was fun. That is where my relationship started when I met my first love and grew closer towards her and her family.

Moving towards my life journey, I have countless fond memories of my college years. The whole “gang” of college students’ activities was awesome. There were countless of parties, projects and activities to keep me occupied during this time. I missed all that. I missed the graduation too. What a great achievement towards the first step to start my working life.

There were the sweet time in my career with many achievements and many promotion celebrations with my colleagues then. So many fond memories but so few spaces left to display all my photos of my life but I have no worries after finding out about LCD digital photo frame. Not only can I display all my photos, I can also display videos of all my unforgettable moments. The best part is that I can opt for the different screen size from 7” until 15” by plugging in only my USB flash drive. It will play directly from it.

No more strenuous wiping of dust. No more cluttering of space. It is the ultimate solution to have a futuristic display taking up only a corner of my table. What a great gadget this digital picture frame is!

MOVING CLOUDS OF LIFE

Beyond the horizon,
Clouds gathered quickly,
Sun hidden permanently.
Darkness seeped in,
Gloomy as it can be.

Thunder boomed noisily,
Lightning struck angrily,
Rain hit the ground furiously,
As if God has saddened,
From up above the changing sky.

Once strong and robust,
Now shrunken to mere skins and bones.
Stricken by illness physically and mentally,
Lies the body of a young suffering child,
Awaiting death knocking at the door.

Life had been sweet,
Even sweeter than the honey,
But life had been filled with so much suffering,
That we end up confusingly asking,
Why must it hit us so hard with such a brutal blow?

Staring blankly upon the sky,
I asked myself about my time and destiny.
How far more can I continue my journey?
No one knows neither do I,
I’ll just drift along with nature’s clouds as long as I can.

Note: In memory of my friend’s son, Ian (March 1993 – August 2007) who had lost his battle against brain tumor recently.

YESTERDAY ONCE MORE

Have you ever dream of turning back the clock to be with the one you ever loved once again? I have always dreamt of doing this, even more after I have visited CC’s blog recently. I was so engrossed with one of her posts that I repeatedly played the video consciously and unconsciously umpteen times. This was the first time I have blog hopped and stopped at a site for more than two hours.

My heart and limbs went soft and fragile listening to this specific song. My body felt so feather light as if I was floating above the air, flying as freely as the birds towards the horizon. But I did not feel free at all. I felt like I was still caged in and struggling desperately to get out of the trauma I had. I tried to control my tears from flooding down onto my keyboard but the memories of my first ever love which still linger in my mind was just too great. Those were indeed the sweetest days I had with her before she migrated elsewhere.

Stumbling onto my couch, my mind was suddenly filled with those sweet memories of the yesteryears. The feelings of holding on to her hand while strolling bare-footedly along the white smooth sand off Batu Ferringhi beach; caressing her tightly but warmly whenever we were together; surprising her with that soft but loving little smooches; stroking her hair now and then, made me wanting to have her sitting right here next to me now. I just could not get her off my mind, even now.

Dozens of photos flashed through my mind picturing the first day we met, the sweetness and bitterness we had gone through together until the day she had moved away with her family. I am still thinking of her, wondering how she would be now. I guessed we were destined not to accompany each other to grow old gracefully. Maybe God has his own ways of separating what was then the perfect match, the perfect soul mate. Although I still have grudges over His cruel decision, but I have to accept the fact that we were never meant for each other as reality.

It hurts deeply not knowing where she is, what she is doing and how she is now. It has been years since I got news from her. Had the love we shared before slowly vanished into thin air? How I wished I could just have a chance to turn back the clock to see her ever beautiful radiance smile once again. Dear…no matter how far you are, I will never erase that valuable part of you ever from my memory. Love you no matter where you are wholeheartedly. Take care!

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

One fine evening, a young urban professional (Yuppie) went for a jog together with some friends at the local park. Accidentally, his watch flew out as he slipped and fell down onto the grass. The watch was special to him as it held many sentimental memories. After a long time of searching high and low together with his friends, he almost gave up. It was near sundown when he saw a group of small boys playing nearby. He went over to them and promised them that whoever found his watch would be rewarded handsomely. Upon hearing this, the boys hurried themselves to the grass area and searched every inch for the watch.

Amongst them was a small boy around the age of 9 years old. The Yuppie noticed that he was just sitting down there quietly doing nothing. It was almost dark when the boys went over to him shaking their heads in vain. He then saw the 9 year old boy stood up, went over to a nearby bushes, sticking his tiny hand into the bushes and pulled out a watch. The Yuppie was happy and asked the boy how he could find the watch so easily while the rest of them could not. The boy replied, “I practically did nothing except to sit there quietly, making myself felt like a part of the grass.” He then continued, “I just listen in silence and heard the ticking of the watch coming from that bushes. I went over and found it there.” The Yuppie was surprised with the answer given by a boy of such a tender age. He then gave the boy RM50 as promised and the boy ran home happily.

The moral behind this story is that sometimes we as an adult acts as if we understand everything so well and can rule the world perfectly. In actual fact, we sometimes lose out to the innocence of just a simple child. We often allow our inner voices, intuitions or even our hearts to be polluted by the noise of the world. With the availability of flashy advertisements, wide arrays of magazines depicting the rich and famous and the greed of wanting to be better materialistically compare to others, had made us feel incompatible to the world surrounding us.

All these “wants” had made us often emulate or imitate others without having a trust in our own decision making. We simply jumped into conclusion and blindly rushed into false and imaginary dreams and goals. Wealth, fame, materialism, inappropriate life partner, false pride are always misleading in our lives. These will not bring us lasting happiness or make us understand the real meaning of life. In life, sometimes we need to distance ourselves from the influence of this confusing world and search for tranquility, to learn to listen to our inner voices and move towards true love, true joy, true peace and true happiness.

Have you experienced how hard it is to find something you wanted when your heart and mind are not at peace? Have you ever realized that when you are having the peace of mind, things that you have lost suddenly popped out from nowhere? Do share with us here what you have experienced before.

Stay Cool…Be Cool…Live Life Cool…

十八岁的回憶

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十八岁。。。
一个羞涩的年龄，
人生中最精采的阶段，
隐藏著无数的惊喜，
充满了欢笑，
也包含了悲伤，
而那一年他爱上了她。

听着自己的心跳，
没有规则的跳跃，
我安静的在思考，
并不想被谁打扰，
我们曾紧紧拥抱，
却又轻易地放掉，
这种感觉很微妙，
應该怎麽说才好，
时间分割成对角，
停止你对我的好，
瓦解我们的依靠。

在妳离开之后的天空，
我像风筝寻找一个梦，
雨后的天空，
是否有放晴后的面容，
我静静的望着天空，
试着寻找失落的感动，
只能用笑容，
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹。

原以为自己已经遗忘了那段，
曾经让自己刻骨铭心的感情，
直到她再度的出现在他眼前，
他才明白原来自己不曾淡忘过，
只是一直不断的压抑自己，
假装不在乎。。。